Horrendously honest #atozchallenge

Struggling with H I abandoned it. Waking the following morning, words came tumbling down. Passing through me like a stream seeing if I could catch any of the contents of the water. Most left my grip as soon as I sat up. Do you find that? The dream or ideas you have in those first moments of waking disappear from your grasp as soon as you sit up.

This time the words didn’t stop coming. What are you doing I asked myself. Why have you chosen the words you’re writing about. Why don’t you want to be open. This blog is supposed to help you and help others if they want it. ‘If you’ve got something to say write it down’ was something someone said to me over twenty years ago and has stuck with me ever since. Was I not going to take this opportunity to write what I really wanted to say.

My A-Z of how I am feeling today (5Feb2014) is Achy, Broken, Cold, Done, Empty, Fragile, Gullible, Hilarious, Impatient, Jaded, Like I don’t know enough k words.. Malleable, Nearly giving up on my novels and AtoZ, Open, Precious, Questioning, Resolute, Sturdy, Tested, Unbelievable, Valuable, Wanted, like I need more XXXX’s in my life, Years younger than I am, Zany for writing this H post.. Let me explain. I got a cold over Christmas, it became a chest infection I think and I’ve been lacking in energy for the past five weeks. Not the best time to try to draft and draw 26 blog posts but if you read C you’ll know I do like a challenge.. I’m sure if I wrote my honest AtoZ when this post goes live (9April2014) it will be much more positive and I’m sure I’ll be laughing at how honest I was!

The rest of my AtoZ will carry on with words I want to explore and ones I’m interested in but I leave you with this one question. If you were to write your AtoZ of how you are feeling today, in this moment right now, what would it say and what are you doing about it? Are you using words that are limiting yourself? Are you giving up on a part of your life? Make a difference to the world by starting with yourself. Don’t give in. Live life to the full. Honour your own being and self-worth. Be honest with yourself, come to terms with your reality then let go of those words you don’t need and move on. Here’s hoping I continue to take my own advice!

horrendously honest

Show don’t tell.

He was horrendously honest.

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He said ‘Every time you do that the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.’

Lynne’s AtoZ blogging challenge theme in case you couldn’t tell:

Linked to thoughts of emotions and behaviours, my theme is ‘I feel….’. Writers among you will be familiar with the phrase show don’t tell, for others it’s what every novelist tries to do. Authors want to show you the emotion and behaviour without telling you it. Trying to practice showing not telling, I have included an example in each post. I may have got it right, I may not have. Please let me know.

Here’s who else is doing the AtoZblogging challenge.