Horrendously honest #atozchallenge

Struggling with H I abandoned it. Waking the following morning, words came tumbling down. Passing through me like a stream seeing if I could catch any of the contents of the water. Most left my grip as soon as I sat up. Do you find that? The dream or ideas you have in those first moments of waking disappear from your grasp as soon as you sit up.

This time the words didn’t stop coming. What are you doing I asked myself. Why have you chosen the words you’re writing about. Why don’t you want to be open. This blog is supposed to help you and help others if they want it. ‘If you’ve got something to say write it down’ was something someone said to me over twenty years ago and has stuck with me ever since. Was I not going to take this opportunity to write what I really wanted to say.

My A-Z of how I am feeling today (5Feb2014) is Achy, Broken, Cold, Done, Empty, Fragile, Gullible, Hilarious, Impatient, Jaded, Like I don’t know enough k words.. Malleable, Nearly giving up on my novels and AtoZ, Open, Precious, Questioning, Resolute, Sturdy, Tested, Unbelievable, Valuable, Wanted, like I need more XXXX’s in my life, Years younger than I am, Zany for writing this H post.. Let me explain. I got a cold over Christmas, it became a chest infection I think and I’ve been lacking in energy for the past five weeks. Not the best time to try to draft and draw 26 blog posts but if you read C you’ll know I do like a challenge.. I’m sure if I wrote my honest AtoZ when this post goes live (9April2014) it will be much more positive and I’m sure I’ll be laughing at how honest I was!

The rest of my AtoZ will carry on with words I want to explore and ones I’m interested in but I leave you with this one question. If you were to write your AtoZ of how you are feeling today, in this moment right now, what would it say and what are you doing about it? Are you using words that are limiting yourself? Are you giving up on a part of your life? Make a difference to the world by starting with yourself. Don’t give in. Live life to the full. Honour your own being and self-worth. Be honest with yourself, come to terms with your reality then let go of those words you don’t need and move on. Here’s hoping I continue to take my own advice!

horrendously honest

Show don’t tell.

He was horrendously honest.

vs

He said ‘Every time you do that the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.’

Lynne’s AtoZ blogging challenge theme in case you couldn’t tell:

Linked to thoughts of emotions and behaviours, my theme is ‘I feel….’. Writers among you will be familiar with the phrase show don’t tell, for others it’s what every novelist tries to do. Authors want to show you the emotion and behaviour without telling you it. Trying to practice showing not telling, I have included an example in each post. I may have got it right, I may not have. Please let me know.

Here’s who else is doing the AtoZblogging challenge.

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17 thoughts on “Horrendously honest #atozchallenge

  1. Nudging me to think about this one. Good for you being horrendously honest, and I hope you are Healed now! I prepared all A to Zs ahead, not knowing how I’d cope with “day of” writing. I have wondered, though, if preparing ahead is as “honest” as what would have come on “day of”.

    Perhaps next year when I’ve had more practice with daily prompts, I’ll be brave enough to leave some alphas to “day of” writing.

    • I wanted all pre-scheduled but being ill put paid to that so I’m having to write quite a few close to deadline this year. Thanks for the well wishes. Getting more energy finally thanks.

  2. If I’m going to be horrendously honest about my writing I’d have to say that I’m so busy doing writing related work that I haven’t indulged in the joy of free writing for weeks. Your post has prompted me to do a bit of free writing this morning so thank you for that. Thinking of ‘I feel’ words for H, have you heard that lovely song ‘I feel happy’ with lots of hand clapping? The video is compulsive viewing.

    • Glad to hear I’ve prompted you to do some free writing Ros.
      I love that song and am now jigging along to the tune playing out in my head. It makes me smile just thinking of it. Thanks for that, just what I needed today. Hope you manage to pop by tomorrow to see the sketch I’m way too over excited about.

  3. I decided not to edit this post. There’s gaping issues with it. Many apologies.. like a reference to one question followed by about three or more.. and no ?’s.. sometimes when we’re under par we have to be content with something not fully finished in our eyes. I think this year I’m posting more scruffier posts than I’m used to but I hope it’s not detracting from the challenge. You do the best you can at that moment. That’s all we can hope for.
    Talking of best we can do please pop by tomorrow.. I’ve done a sketch that’s rather stunned me, particularly after looking at my feeble attempt to draw a face on todays post. I hope you agree.

  4. I love how you ask this question. What would I do differently. I’m not sure I would do anything different, although, I did underestimate the amount of work involved by replying to comments, visiting commenter’s blogs, then visiting other blogs.

    It has been a great experience so far!

    • Each year my goal is to preshedule so I can pootle and support others.. Each year that’s a challenge and I stick to visiting those who visit and comment here as a minimum. I’ll get to visit others too gradually. This year’s AtoZ is turning out pretty good..

  5. I’m so glad I do my AtoZ posts in advance – most of my ordinary ones are done about a week ahead, in truth. All I want to do at present is leave the computer, leave the timer that ticks away failing to load the screen contents, and get to sleep. I’m already at the stage of never wanting to do the AtoZ again. Although yesterday I wrote down another theme option for next year. I’m mad.

    The next few days are usually the hump! Keep blogging and visiting, everyone 🙂

    Jemima
    #Team Damyanti
    Blogging from Alpha to Zulu in April

    • I tried to get all mine prescheduled but illness took over so I’ve still got about 13 to write and sketch and schedule!
      If you will go and vol for team Damyanti what do you expect 😉 We need you to keep doing what you do so hang on in there.
      Huge thanks for popping by and commenting.
      You keep going too, we’ll all get there!

  6. Hey, honesty is never horrendous, unless it’s just mean on purpose… and that guy does look kinda mean. 🙂 I do love how you just did all the letters of the alphabet in this one post for how you are feeling… that was pretty awesome.

    Random Musings from the KristenHead — H is for Hearts and Handmade

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